The most important message ever: LOVE

Here is how powerful His word is... This is word for word the highlighted portions of what I happened to come across when I opened up the book:

I know how bad I've been; my sins are staring me down.
What your after is truth from the inside out. Enter me, then; conceive a new, true life.
God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos in my life.
Going through the motions doesn't please you, a flawless performance is nothing to you.
I learned God worship when my pride was shattered.

You know lately, when I least expect it I see the most beautiful things in not only my life, but through the lives of others. It is so true how the man upstairs shows us so many things through other people. Being able to see others share how broken they are inside and how much they want to know God is just the most amazing thing I can ever watch. It's like people pouring out their heart and you can just feel their need to be loved. I think that's how God is. He gives us so much love because he sees how much we really need it. I mean we can be angry, getting wasted, inflicting pain on ourselves, crying, yelling, telling someone off, pushing people away, getting defensive, being alone, closing the door, overeating, getting jealous, envying others, but in the end all we desire is Love. That's it. Being complete. Being loved without conditions. Knowing that someone cares about us without us doing anything back. Well that kind of love exists. That is what keeps me going, that;s what makes me tick on the most off day. I know a love like no other. And it's so hard to explain at times, but it completes me. It makes life real, because I know I am a daughter of God, I know I have purpose and if you don't know that my one prayer is that you can see that, grasp that, and feel it. I don't care about religion; about how many church services you've attended. It doesn't matter, it's not about reading the bible every morning at such and such time. It's about a relationship. It's about knowing who you are by knowing who created you. I'm not an expert on this topic, i don't claim to be perfect. But I will tell you this, I love God with all my heart, and I strive everyday to know Him more. You know why? Because I want other people to feel this love. I went from hating myself, thinking I was worth nothing; looking for meaning in a world that's standards are unreal, trying to be the best, be successful, be strong, be loved to a different life. Before I tried to earn peoples love. Having a boyfriend made me feel secure, confident, pretty, loved. When that didn't work, I looked to success in school, then drugs, then sex. Nothing filled me. Nothing completed me. But somehow one conversation lead to another, and God kept tugging on my heart. All these questions I had, all these curiosities about religion, God, tradition. Jews love tradition. I didn't understand, but one day I hit rock bottom. I fell flat on my face. I was alone. I had failed. I wasn't loved. At lest i didn't know it at the time. But God still was holding his arms out, just waiting for all this pain and suffering to push me close to Him. He knew I couldn't do it on my own, that soon I would give up and look for someone's help that won't fail me. Waiting for the moment I would embrace Him and realize that He loves me. That I am His, and that no matter what I did yesterday, what I do today, what happens tomorrow, that I am loved by Him. It's not about rules, traditions, or how many bible studies you attend, if you listen to worship music or not, it's about God's love for you. Having the love of God in your life. Trusting Him and wanting what He has always had for you, a life of purpose,new life. A life with Love like you never knew it. I am so serious when I say I have never felt love like this before. Every day that I think I know what love is, God shows me more and I realize how wrong I am. His love is greater than I could ever IMAGINE. Thanks God. You are the best Father ever. Thank you so much for saving my life when I was 18 and on the verge of ending my life. Thank you for bringing me here to FSU. You have brought so many beautiful people into my life and I could honestly never thank you enough. My days are never dull! haha thanks women's tennis!! Thanks for teaching me what unconditional love means, and giving me a heart for others who need your love.